34 weeks!

First of all, another new blog format. The other one was just too busy for me, and the dark color behind the text made it hard for me to read. So I thought this one would be better, for now at least. Be warned...I might change it again though. ;)



Things are going great. Only six weeks or less until we get to meet our little girl! We are excited, but very very nervous. I think we are both still waiting for the other shoe to drop. Anytime we talk about her, somewhere in our conversation one of us says, "I hope she is healthy".

It is really too bad that we are both so guarded about having kids. Instead of it being a joyous experience for us, we are both riddled with fear and anxiety throughout the whole process. It was a struggle to have our first child, and then to have issues come up after his birth, it really was unexpected. Now however, we are almost expecting something bad to happen, and are having a hard time really believing that everything will be okay.

Unfortunately, it seems that we are still waiting for our "perfect" baby, and many of our future plans hinge on how June comes out. Obviously we love Lincoln more than words can express, and we would never/could never replace him in our hearts or minds, but a developmentally normal and healthy child will add a sense of normalcy to our family that we currently lack. It would be wonderful to experience everyday worries that are normal to a mother of a toddler; babyproofing for a walker/climber/someone who opens cabinets and drawers, what activities to do during the day to keep a busybody busy, teaching words and numbers and colors, worrying about schedules and naptimes and routines. Most of this stuff we barely deal with at this point with Lincoln. We love every moment we have with Lincoln, and it melts our hearts when he learns something new, but we also hope to God that we will get the oppourtunity to see what a developmentally normal baby does as she learns and grows.

**Fingers crossed**